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the one left behind

I am the one left behind

I don't think it's on purpose
By some spiteful or absent mind

But as a matter of course
Or a matter of indecision
I am the one left behind

Regardless, might I add
Of my age or knowledge
Regardless of my sentiment
That others don't acknowledge

It's simply the way that everyone goes
I am not quite ready to follow
So I am the one left behind.

And it rather hurts
And it makes me want to cry
And I hate that I am stuck here
While everyone passes by

The road unmarked is left for me
The road most traveled is banned to me
So I am the one left behind

It's not my intention to be one of them
It's not my direction to wallow or bend
But walking alone easily becomes
The death of one

No one will notice
Because I hate to complain
Or someone will notice
And I'll heartily complain

But at the end of all those words
Or lack thereof
There is merely sympathy
Not understanding
And I am the one left behind

Again.

Unattainable

I just wanted to be beautiful Like her, like her, like her My hair a waterfall of silk Like her, like her, I'm not like her My skin glowing like the moon My eyes an ocean too My figure like a sculpture for your house My hands are empty without yours I want love and hope and more I just wanted to beautiful
Why have I failed, I failed, I failed I'm more ugly than before I'm a shadow, shadow, shadow I can't be ugly if I want to be yours
I just wanted to be beautiful Like her, like her, like her I want to be as perfect Like her, like her, I'm not like her My voice as silver as the stars Give you shivers in your heart My scent will draw you in until you're mine But I'm so far away from that I'm hopeless and I'm fat I just wanted to be beautiful
Why have I failed, I failed, I failed I'm more ugly than before I'm a shadow, shadow, shadow I can't be ugly if I want to be yours
Why do I want to be yours What does that say When every day I give a little more Throwing pieces of m…

When the Heart Breaks

I know the sound that the heart makes When the heart breaks And it isn't a sound at all It's weighty silence Filling up my ears And I don't want to hear it at all
I want noise, I want guns Not these pounding silent drums I want anything but this
I want love, I want life I was hope, I want light I want happiness
I know the sound that the heart makes When the heart breaks And I never want to heart it again
You know the sound that the heart makes When the heart breaks And it isn't a sound at all It's dreadful silence Filling up your ears And you don't want to hear it at all
You want noise, you want screams Not this darkness, or these dreams You want anything but this
You want love, you want life You want hope, you want light You want happiness
You know the sound that the heart makes When the heart breaks And you never want to hear it again

One Breath

We said, one day We'd be stars in the sky Holding hands, in space We'd illuminate the night Now that day, it's gone And you left without me I'm lonely, I'm torn I miss having you beside me
I remember the day Your heart stopped beating Honestly, I wanted mine to Stop beating too But that's selfish, I'm breathing My heart is still beating I've got keep on breathing for you
One step, one breath I'll keep on breathing for you
We lived, like fools Running around in our heads Playing games, being cool What was the life we led? Now you're gone, I'm hurt I walk this road alone My heart, it burns I wish you could come back home
I remember the day Your heart stopped beating Honestly, I wanted mine To stop beating too But that's selfish, I'm breathing My heart is still beating I've got to keep on breathing for you
One step, one breath I'll keep on breathing for you
Surrounded by love Why isn't it enough To keep the fire in my heart alive My dreams, fading I'll catch…

Torn

Would you hold me tighter If I was a little bit nicer Would you take my hand In front of everyone Would you pull me in closer And I would try harder to know you Would you want to be something In front of everyone
If I chose my bite my tongue 'Cause you're not just anyone You're the one I want to stay by In the storm and through the night If I hold back on my thoughts And give you all you think I ought Is it right to want to be with you When you always tell me what to do
I'm torn, I can't tell left from right I'm worn, you're leaving me so cold I'm hurt, I'm bleeding on the ground I'm torn, 'cause I won't do as I'm told
If I just held back You want this or that And I do what you like Dusk to sunrise You pick red when I'm blue But I'm over the moon When you smile at me And my senses leave Because you are the one You've got to be I'm holding onto This truth of you for me What if I'm wrong Why am I holding my tongue
I'm torn, I can't tell left…