what I'm doing

I don't know what I'm doing.

I'm a college student. I get average grades. I take an antidepressant because I get depressed. I have rollercoaster emotions and attachment issues. I like to watch videos on Youtube and have conversations with characters.

But that's all who I am.

I don't know what I'm doing.

I guess I know that I'm distancing myself from the people I wish could be closer to me. I go to bed late and feel tired all day. I take walks by myself and  write poetry and draw, but these things are not what I'm doing. They're just who I am.

What am I doing?

I'm not an illiterate, confused buffoon. But I don't know what I'm doing.